When Selfishness Rears Its Ugly Head

human being, being human are complicated mammals. We often act before thinking and much less of the reverse. I think being selfish is an integral part of human nature. Its always better if we "keep" everything to ourselves or choose not to share information with others. Its just our natural feeling. What if he/she is better than me? What if he/she uses my idea? What if he/she does a better job than me? What ifs.. and what ifs... it is very easy to be selfish nowadays and not so easy to share the benefits and knowledge we acquire. This pertaining fear in us drives our selfish desire to want more for ourselves and benefit thy self only.

I do not like to be confronted with acts of selfishness. Especially among friends whom you trust and share stuff with. I find it absolutely ridiculous that simple things can drives hurt feelings on the basis of trust and friendship. I think it is absolutely NOT worth keeping something that is of material/academic value and not choosing to share. But then i guess its just a natural part of our being and we do it unconsciously quite often thinking we gain the most advantage but not realising the loses we stand to face. Selfishness drives us to be people we are not. It rears its ugly head in the simplest of situations and makes everyone uncomfortable... oh well...

today in school was not a very pleasant day.. but 3 days more to my return! haha. i love singapore so much. the reality of life, squeezing in mrts, criticizing the amusing nature of fellow singaporeans. absolute reality and cold hard truth that NS is less than a year away (OMG). that is why i love singapore. its just beautiful because the people make it beautiful. (haha madness) group 4 project tomorrow... hope it will be an enjoyable experience... but really looking forward to coming back and the multitude of deadlines to meet! :) cant wait to see everyone. Hopefully.

Cornelius

i hate it when u suddenly talk to me. i dont know what to expect anymore. its like u choose when we communicate and when not to. I need to stop it. Now.